I preferred the numbness when I relived your memories
Etched in my heart for a lifetime
I never got a chance to say farewell, I was too afraid to see you
The tubes
The grim beeping of the life support
I’ve never seen you weak
That made weak
Pills
Alcohol
Anything to make me forget how I neglected you when you needed me the most
Still in a trance from the prior night’s prescription of heartbreak relievers
Somehow arrived at your grave.
On my knees in tears, begging for your forgiveness.
I pled for your admirable strength
Even in death your ability to prevail still outweighs my perseverance
When my daze became clear
My guilt is released
My heart alludes that you are a present
I feel the tinge from the Sun
It’s you, I know it
Reassuring me, that everything will be ok
I will be ok
Your love for me is still unconditional
I find peace in that.
